In the last three weeks I have often found myself struggling to find the words to describe the beauty I am encountering.
I have a feeling I am going to have that problem tonight.
This evening was the closing service for Project Paul.
I want to hold the things I heard . . . the things I felt . . . the things I experienced . . . tonight and these past three weeks . . . in my heart forever.
We arrived to the closing service late . . . because we (Danny, Juan & I) were picking up Tron, Cut & Jonathan up from the airport.
As I walked in Claudia came up to me and told me that everyone was going to have to give a testimony about the week . . . my heart nearly stopped.
So I sat there for about the next hour, thinking of what I would say . . . how I would describe my experience with the project.
There were plenty of funny stories to tell . . . leche caliente, Manuel leaving me in Tigrilla, and late nights with the youth.
But for some reason, I opted not to go the funny and nerve relieving route . . . I went for what my gut was telling me . . . I decided to share how deeply I felt about what I had experienced.
I told them how I felt awkward the first week, that I was just a "gringo" who was going to get in the way . . . and how grateful I was that they let me be a part of this project.
I also told them that I felt a little "useless" at times because I could not speak Spanish very well . . . and so much of this trip was conversation based.
But the awkwardness and my lack Spanish did not really seem to get in the way of what God wanted to do.
And I think that was the point of these three weeks . . . that it was not really about me at all . . . but about God and His plans.
I didn't have much faith that we could plant/start a church in three weeks . . . and the truth is that we couldn't.
But God did . . . and experiencing that has changed my life.
Project Paul may be over . . . but there is still a great amount of work to be done.
On Sunday night as everyone was headed home . . . going their seperate ways for the first time in three weeks, Gaby (the team leader in Tigrilla) turned me and said, "Don't forget Tigrilla".
And I told her . . . there is no way I ever could.