Typical

So I am doing everything possible not to react in the typical manor, but I am failing miserably. And for the knowledge of all parties involved, the typical manor is not so cool (if so inclined one could ask for a more detailed defintion). Despite its complete non-coolness I usually do not have a problem just going a long with it, except this time is different. Everything about Columbus is different. I don't want to screw this up, I don't want to shut down, I don't want to be stupid.

I really want this to be different.

I dare say I need this to be different.

Please God let it be different, let me be different . . . please.